Going downhill once again.

Life

My friend from Australia called me. He told me about his problems like how life is all planned out for him.. He told me he couldnt mix well with the australians because they simple do not like chinese. i feel sad cus all i could do was listen.

He told me also how he needed to pretend to be okay and just pretend that everyone's nice because he was so afraid to know the truth which is that they actually just dont like him cus he's chinese. So he lived through everyone pretending everything's okay when obviously they're not. A chinese girl who worked at a restaurant became his friend. And she confronted him asking "why dont you just live life the way you want it to be''? Why do u have to please them? He thought about that and then decided to call me because we once had a talk about pleasing people who dont even give a shit about you.,

Then i told him how its been here and stuff. He then talk about how some people can act so nice but then own a heart so black but yet we cant see? Why cant people just live the way they are and just stop acting to be nice and then saying that others are fake when they themselves are? Some people like me, look angry and pissed off if i dont smile. so its like others just say im purposely showing that face. oh please its effin not my fault k. im just freaking BORN with it and sadly so as my friend's.

Bluuu House

i feel so blue... the sky is blue...

blue. blue. blue.

its so stupid to keep fighting knowing that that endless and it doesnt gain anyone anything.

but.

why do people still do it?

i mean. we misunderstand people so easily.

its like u dont know her but your best friend goes on craping shitz about her and then you end up disliking her as well.

oh, its so stupid.

hmm. let's talk about faith.

can anyone ever realllyyyy be faithful?

lets talk about hatred.

can anyone really hate a person sooo much that they actually get sooo narrow minded and act all fake towards the person and pointing fingers saying she's the one to blame for being who she is when actually they themselves are just too blinded to just notice that its not true ?

Why do people have to do things for a reason. i mean. its like they accuse and get suspicious so easily. so blinded to not see the fact that its a small problem and yet make a big fuss saying oh she did it. oh i she's not nice. Why cant you just act like you're a human and just effin understand the whole situation before pointing fingers?

hmm.

Everyone should be given a chance to be known through direct communication, rumours spread often included with personal comments. So its better to really know that person instead of just hearing stories and judging them based on the the stories heard.

People Change. Gossip doesnt.

days

Ah yea.... everyone's busy with new stuff.
Just me here..
starring at my blog page while everybody else is busy with life..
*lets out a heavy breath*

oh well.
Guess there's nothing i can do about it
i messeged my old friend today..
His name's Russel
The feeling of messenging a new friend is hmm different.
But he's gone to do his revision
*lets out another breath*
im tired.
nights.


Jayme*

Change

Change. The only thing that'll never stop happening.

No matter how close you can be with someone,
how much things both of you can share,
somehow....
eventually, everything seems to change.

Sometimes maybe its for the best even though
usually, its not.

I wish i can trust others more easily..
I wish i can fully trust someone until the point where i'd never doubt them.
I wish everything i hold against her fades away.

Jayme*

Something New

Lately a lot of things has been going on. Next week's exam week and well a lot of pop up events sorta POPPED UP lately. hmm Lets see, I've got a new friend! Her name is LU Baau Ling. =) She's really nice and cute. She's kinda funny too i have to say. And then There's also Vanessa Chan who's kinda funny in a mean way. I asked her to become a follower of my blog and she said no =( . Both of them are nice. =)

My life is some sort changing. People changed and things changed. Its a bit scary when the person u thought who was shows you a total different side and you're there standing wondering whether u actually know them or not. Hmmmm boy friends and girl friends. I've learned that if a guy can treat his girlfriend or previous girlfriends like crap you can very likely be next. I mean we ALL know that a tiger never changes its stripes. SO girls. DO BE CAREFULL. NEVER EVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER. Let it be a normal face but very understanding heart than a pretty face but a shitty character. =)
*no offence*

Khau Jing Ting, Bolo are cool people of the week in my bloggie. =)

Hmmmm oh yea btw i changed seats. =) Its way coolerXD

Jaymee*

sunday.. MONDAY...tuesday....

ah.. today no mrs ting tuition..

hmmm... photos looked nice....

loads of homework:(

see ya!
jamie*

oh wait wait!!
carmen won a full scholarship to Taylors!!! WOOO HOOOO!
CArmen loong's awesome~
CArmen loong's amazing~

Carmen Loong's my best friend =)
she rocks.!

9/7/09

okay... time to post a new entry into my blog =) im still not quite used to this blogging thing. i mean i used to have a blog and i usually only post something when im down or simply when i have something to talk about.

I usually dont blog because im too lazy to turn on the computer and stuff like that. but oh well.. i can always blog once in a while =)

Today is thursday and we had PE lessons. i didnt run because that time i had just finished having my breakfast.. Then the whole entire time i was merely studying sejarah. I think i did well in my sejarah test but not as good as i wanted =(.

Lee yi rou( a girl from my class) found ways to attract attention to our soft board simply by posting stuffs such as HOTTEST GUYS IN S2 YI, HOTTEST AND MOST SEXIEST FEMALE IN S2 Yi and so on.

I however have been listed under GIRLS WITH MOST ATTRACTIVE SMILE. Lee yi rou's seriously full of surprising ideas. hmm i heard she's even considering to place a box with quoted papers inside and all of us my pick one and read what's our fate for that day. It works like fortune cookies except these are in a box.=)

Friends friends friends..
Just today i noticed how some people can be so close to you but yet so far. We learn to trust others but sometimes it just seems so impossible as they are always somehow twisting their words. Some speak so rudely of you in front of others it just hurts you with whatever that comes out from their mouth. And the most anoying thing is that they dont even care. Sigh. It hurts a lot when you know that your friends are doing something and they just simply dont wanna tell you. even when that something is not something very big. It hurts a lot .

Sometimes i see two people talking about something general. like whether or not to go to a tuition or whether or not to photostate something and when u just casually ask them what they're talking about, they always just lie to your face. saying oh its nothing. or well we're not changing tuition or stuff like that when they really are. It doesnt affect your feelings when you really dont know but when u know the other side of the story which is the truth it hurts a lot to see that they actually dont bother to share things with you and they somehow just dont trust you.
sigh.

I always tell them everything but they never be honest and straight with me . WHy? i really dont understand. Is this what everyone calls FRIENDS? sigh.

WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR YOU ALL TO JUST BE HONEST WITH ME?
i know when you're going to a tuition and you dont want someone else to join.
I know when those notes are so precious u dont wanna share with others and yet im the one u lie to.

BOTTOM LINE Is i know that you all are lying to me only.(sigh)
Guys it really hurts.
AM i seriously that untrustworthy?

I ask because i care.
I tried to be your friend but you all keep pushing me away.
By the way just cus u cant spell something correctly doesnt mean u dont deserve to study overseas.
*if u cant say something nice to others, better to keep your mouth shut because some wounds just dont heal.*

Jayme.

Second day of school holiday

I was supposed to play paintball with S2 xin people yesterday but sadly i couldnt make it cus i came down with fever. =( anyhow, i did quite a lot of stuffs yesterday =) i filed my piano sheets. GAWD they were everywhere. Then, i piled my school books :) *dont ask why* Anyways i think i've got to improve my chinese language this holiday. my chinese SUCK and as a chinese myself, my chinese has rotten up till the point where im somehow motivated to actually try to improve it. So, i started reading a chinese novel. man you wouldnt believe how hard it is to understand all those charaters. i read two pages and i gave up. hmm i figured i might continue after a few days. Holiday just started so the boredom has not come yet =).

CArmen..... CARMEN CARMEN!
WHy'd you leave to CHINA sooooo early!!!
=(

Anyways people, my plant died *sob* i tried to rescue it by cutting all its leaves * stupid but it was what the internet said to do* i thought it would survive but Nooooooooooooooo.. sigh there goes one plant. i loved that plant. Everything around me seems to be dying. well not physically but like just something not obvious.. hmmmmm

MY mom made scones today =) well actually just then. They were nice (= . I watched three series of CSI. They were okay. Oh by the way guys i think me and Ms luk are cool once more. she smiled at me yesterday. She tried to talk to me too which was soo wierd because she acted soo friendly it almost seemed scary.

oops there goes my loud notifier*mom's voice*
Gotta go.

*jaymee~

Tuesday

Weee! its TuesDAY!! Tomorrow i'm having my piano exam. =) I seriously hope ill do really well. I've been practicing for ages but i still cant avoid having those sudden hesitations. It's really annoying. Anyways, i might leave school at around 9 tomorrow and i MIGHT go back later. Anyways, i have loads of homework to do. Carmen Liong just came back from Korea today. How cool, her mom lets her join her trip even though she has school. Moving on, she bought heaps of korean clothing which attracted the girls' attention in class. They were all trying out the clothes to see how they looked in it and i remember Karen trying this dress and wanted to show the class but at the same time our Sejarah teacher walked it. hehe it was pretty funny. OH oh today me and Jeremiah kept laughing in class. Actually together with Susan and Jesbelle. hee I heard our class might put on a performance on Teacher's DAY =D how awesome?! ME and Jeremiah might get a chance to be a tree! I know its nothing to be excited about. i mean it's just a tree yeah big deal. Its not even like we're gonna be the MAIN actress and actor and but i think that's the whole reason why it's so exciting. We'll be laughing and observing the students' reactions and we might just make the tree walk (=. It's gonna be fun hehehehe.

OH well anyways i guess that's all for today =)
Thanks for reading!
Jayme*

Again*

If when you wake up in the morning,
And the hurting is so great,
You don't want to get out of bed
And face the world of hate.

If everything in like goes wrong
and nothing you do seems right,
You just try a little harder
And soon you'll see the light.

For every person who has put you down
And filled your life with pain,
You must strive to achieve greatness
And show them you can win.

For every disappointment,
For the times you are let down,
there will be a better moment
And your life with turn around.

Because everyone feels heartache
And everyone feels pain,
But only those who have true courage
Can get up and try again.

Labour day

today's Labour day.... I planned to study but the feeling hasnt kicked in yet.. so im gonna wait and wait... eventually ill get the feeling to study. hee okay hmm i made an account with blogspot because most of the people i know seem to be using blogspot.. even my best friend carmen started using one. =) anyways this post is just to say hello... to whoever who's reading =)

Jay-me